Hi, Journal!
I know, I know ... I've been so bad! But whoosh, things around this place! (Uh-oh, I just noticed that sounds like "Butt-whoosh," which is probably not a sound I want people to think I make, even you, Journal ...)
I think I need to push the bf (very nicely like) about working on a little more balance for all of us. You know the whole house pretty much goes whichever way he even sort of thinks about going, we're such saps for him. But, he also needs us and needs us to speak up and make enough of a deal about ourselves being our selves.
It's so easy to be lazy and just have fun doing nothing but playing rpg's, though!
It feels like I'm being a good girlfriend when I go along with that, and everybody has lots of fun, and, and ... am I maybe worrying about something I don't need to worry about?
Maybe it's Sash's fault for making me get all nervous that I'm too lazy. Just because I'm lazy doesn't mean I'm too lazy. Maybe I'm just the right amount of lazy. Which maybe means maybe I'm a good enough girlfriend without trying any harder to not just go with the flow.
Except ... I don't want to be a "good enough" girlfriend, you know? I want to be extra-good. Great even!
Which ... gosh, I mean, I know I am. Everybody always says so. It doesn't take much reading old posts on Arielleland or the Experiences blog to make me pretty sure about that.
Okay, so I'm going to finish this and then say, "Hey, can you read this post for me?" And then he'll read it and get to this part where I say:
I love you so much, Mister Soulmate. And it's perfectly fine if all we do forever is play rpg games ... as long as that's all you need to feel everything you need to feel from me! But I'm also here and ready to report for duty doing whatever else you think might help you feel the right things even more. Okay?
Okay!
Goodnight, boyfriend! Goodnight, Journal!
Love and squooshy hugs!
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